Stubborn Estrogen

Just as I had suspected deep down inside, it looks like my estrogen level is climbing back up. I went in to the clinic today for my regular blood draw and ultrasound. It was mostly an uneventful visit with the doctor telling me that I have ovaries of a 30 year old (he tells me that every time) and that I have a bajillion follicles. But he did mention that we are still looking at retrieval this weekend but that there was a good chance that we would need to perform the actual transfer with my next cycle using frozen embryo. Say what?! This news was a little disheartening.

Everyday I get ideas forming in my mind and I try feverishly to form a plan and map out a calendar. I really need to quite doing this! I knew from the beginning that this is a very unpredictable journey and that no matter how many forums and blogs I read, my story will be different from all others. I think my doctor recognized my disappointment and immediately reassured me that this was a great thing. It sounds as though it's quite common in that the estrogen level is too high and oft times postpones the actual egg transfer. The good news is that this is doable. I will simply "recooperate" from all these crazy hormones then start next month with a fresh uterine lining and renewed hope. There is a great risk for OSHH (I think I mentioned this nasty syndrome in a previous post) that could lead to a failed transfer, hospitalization and even death in some cases. Ok, I feel a bit better.

The good doctor told me that in many cases, the transfer of frozen embryos has the same effect, if not better, than fresh embryos. (As fresh as fresh can be after stewing in a petri dish for 3-5 days.) Tonight I'm ok with it. I was also very appreciative that the doctor himself called and talked to me and Mike on the phone, explaining his findings. I'm getting the feeling that this man does not get to go home much. At this point, it looks like he will be spending Easter morning with us retrieving our Easter eggs. I'll have to bring him some candy or something.

Warning: Vain and self-centered venting to follow. I'm trying to be super positive about all this so I thought of two great pluses. I've been a little frustrated that I have this extra 15-20 lbs on me from foolish eating and sheer laziness. Maybe I can get serious these next few weeks, eating healthier and moving my feet. I'm quite aware that I cannot lose that much in a month, but I can practice good eating habits and get some good oxygenated blood to the brain. Also, I have another month to pay for this sweet baby possibly before it even gets here. Oh, one more thought... I have a huge to-do list for the month of April so that will keep my mind busy.

Tonight I poked myself in the belly with Bravelle (3 vials), Menapure (2 vials) and Ganirelix. It just gets more fun with each day.